Thursday, May 10, 2007
Labels: argh
Let me start with the fact that Muddy Grass, much as Junyi and I try, I would say that its doomed. The team is non-existant. There is no mutual team spirit. I feel like... why should I stay with it, offer my passion and my heart to this team which has lost its fire and drive. I am only a very junior member with absolutely no concrete links to muddy grass and I already feel like this. What more a person who is looking for a club to join. 3 captains dont make a club. 3 people's hope cant hold up a whole team. I dont know how much more I can take it. I am just going for training coz I feel like I got an obligation to fulfill and I am going coz I like to play. I am not going because I know there is a team who needs my support, because I know this team will grow and benefit from me training with them.
And league. Its really pushing the 3 of us to the limit. There are so many things to do, and we only had 1 muddy grass person actively reply our email saying he would help. And even he has not been heard from ever since that 'confirmation' of assistance. So much of the club organizing league. Its just the 3 of us. And why are we doing it? We are 1: the youngest 2: the most inexperience 3: the ones with the least resources at our hands 4: the freaking captains who do the dirty jobs. And its bad enough that we are the league commissioners. None of the older muddy grass people have signed up for league. Do they expect us to 1: captain this dying club 2: be league commissioners and do all the tough work for the club 3: lead a team for league too? I really dont know what to say. No other league has been so desperate to demand each club cough up a pair of captains. We are the 1st to do it. And our very own club wont even have volunteers doing the simplest of all jobs to help us.
Tell me my fellow huckers. Why am I doing this? Its times like this when I feel like just abandoning muddy grass. My time and effort is slopping down the drain. There are a lot more problems besides this. Much of it stemming from the fact that we the captains are just the smallest and most junior of all the members. I hate this. I should never have been tasked this dirty job. I dont think any of the 3 of us in charge should have to put up with this atrocious behavior.
Help. I don't want to blow at them. But I might. Soon. I don't think I can take it for much longer.
If I blow, its just gonna make me more upset.
Help. HELP.
Its 3.50am now. I am dead tired but I don't think I can sleep though.
Leave your disc with us :P